Day 14 and a real look at myself

On the 13th day I basically didn’t care for the diet. When I woke up yesterday (the 14th day), I really felt like making up for it, I wanted to have the perfect day. Eating healthy and exercising. I did eat healthy and did the squats until I decided that I wanted to go out for dinner and basically ruined it. Also I didn’t drink the water. That’s two bad days in a row.

Today (15th), I feel so unmotivated to continue this. I haven’t even posted the plan for this week, but today would be exercise day. And I feel like skipping it so bad.

I won’t be losing weight if I just go back to my old habits. I won’t eat the food I like without feeling guilty if I try to lose weight.

It’s a matter of what I really want. Is food more important than feeling good in my own skin, feeling confident and being healthy?

I’m afraid that deep down the answer is yes.

And there’s no change possible if I don’t want to change.